When i were in school, life seems no sadness, play with my roomates, we had meals together, wo went shoping, and play computor games, talk about just boy topics, it's really happy, and i was always be confident, i always think of myself as a king of English in my school. The life is just so perfect, I don't think anyone that don't have the same circumstance as me could understand how wonderful the feeling is.

Then, bang. I have to walk out my easy street to face the society along, in fact, I'm not scared, cause i am a man. After find a work which satisfied me a little, everything changed. It's not I have to work 8or more hours a day, or i almost have to do the same things everyday, not I can't play and enjoy my life like before, it's no matter how many effort i paid and what i did, i just haven't fond any buyer for wholely 3months, i can't say it didn't hurt, not only my confidence but also my poor nerves. In additional, it's a small firm, the boss is not good, and there's few workers and only one colleagues, what's more they are all boys.

All of these just makes my life extremly terrible, I even doubt what i'm living for, so, you know,and now i was confused, i don't know what to do and how to do. i lost my passion and my focus of living.

 Well, it's a very hard time for me. I'd like flee away, all my energy is not going into wasting time think hardly about how to solve this problem. cause i'm young, time is so valuable, I have to change my environment around me.